I feel as if I'm being rushed through everything lately. At work, there is no pausing or thinking. There is only be busy or look busy. I can't relax. I'm always feeling as if I'm being watched and judged. I can not pause and find a quite corner to breath. That's all I really crave right now is some peace. I want to able to think and be me without feeling judged. I want to be home with Sarah and Jordan, just being us.Just living in the moment,the three of us walking somewhere in the warm sun, nothing needed to be done. Nowhere we have to go. I feel like this place I'm in is stealing that from me. I become bitter and angry.
I also kind of feel a bit stressed about not having my computer set up completely for photography. I just haven't had the time to get everything done. And I know that this crash and getting a new one with new programs is still a major hault in my workflow. I also know I'm going to need time to learn things. This is another thing I feel work is stealing from me.
It's not that 8 hours is all that much. It's the extra 2+ driving all the way out here.
I'm just happy I am ready to move on.
I also kind of feel a bit stressed about not having my computer set up completely for photography. I just haven't had the time to get everything done. And I know that this crash and getting a new one with new programs is still a major hault in my workflow. I also know I'm going to need time to learn things. This is another thing I feel work is stealing from me.
It's not that 8 hours is all that much. It's the extra 2+ driving all the way out here.
I'm just happy I am ready to move on.
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